I've thought about the climb to the roof
looking down..looking down
what would go through my brain on the way down
would there be a second where I felt pain?
or saw my brain on the concrete?
tommorow i'll just look down again. very carefully.
i'm so fucking scared...i wish i was confident
but i have to be strong. i have to DO THE RIGHT THING
every time it looks better down there and worse up here. i couldn't do it so easily..it would take mental preperation. but isn't that whatt i'm doing?
isn't that what i'm ready for?